It sounds like a good plan, changing some habits. Whether they are habits in thought, action or attitude, there are things I'd like to do to make my life better, happier, and more full of integrity, where my thoughts match my loving heart. Yep, that's the plan. But, I've said that to myself or others plenty of times, and some things have changed, while others seem stuck.
Some of those habits I'd like to see change are so engrained in my being, they seem unlikely to change. But after texting with a friend last night, about being on my own pity pot of feeling lonely, she said she was praying for me to get over the loneliness, the thoughts of someone else, and for a new joy to come alive. She also said she knows who I am and my heart, and that I was special to her and many people. It was a blessing to hear, and....it helped me understand that I was just stuck in my own crap. I texted her back a huge thank you, but it also made me think that although I pray and want to change, I also have to show some guts, determination and HEART! That's where "putting my foot down" comes into the picture.
I must not only pray for change or hope in a situation, but need to make a DECISION. And that decision is something from deep inside that says, "enough is enough." That decision puts my foot down to say I believe in myself, my future, my present, and my God. The God I believe in is so full of love, and quiet support, that I can trust He is giving me the power to live well.
I can decide not to drink soda, I can decide not to eat sweets, I can decide to concentrate on gratitude by writing it out, or letting others know, and I can decide to make some art or read. I CAN do those things. Instead of praying for those changes, I can DECIDE to do them. Sometimes, it's really easy to forget how powerful we are. We are the most amazing creatures and have the POWER to change and grow. Decide upon it!
It may actually sound like I'm talking myself into all of this, and maybe I am in a way giving myself a pep talk, but it's the truth too. "For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7. And so when the time comes where emotions want to change my determination and heart, I need to remember this and my decision to trust, commit, and the truth.
Now live it! Thank you God.
The photo below was taken on my school's campus just a few days ago. Check out the baby herons that are growing up.
As I sat in an empty hallway yesterday, waiting for my new drumming teacher, I looked across the way to an empty room, and Marianne Williamson's quote was on the door. Love that!
The song below is supposedly about Albert Einstein, but I've always loved the words and thought it could fit Jesus too.
Blessings to you all. XO